The past few months have been rather intense. I have been juggling so many balls and thought I was indestructible. I have had numerous challenges in my businesses and my personal life (as we do). Yes I am a healer and help people with their health and wellness issues, but I am not immune to it myself. I am also a business owner of two businesses, single mother, part-time student and busy with another project with my writing.
I was feeling the pressure but I also had to move out of the house I was living in. Last minute issues saw me looking for a new place with only a few days to go before I moved. A few days before I was to move, the ATM machine swallowed my bank card and cancelled it, I lost my purse in the parking lot of a shopping centre (thank goodness the person who picked it up was a good man and found my mother’s number in my purse and called her). One of my other international debit cards was cancelled for some ‘unknown reason’ and it takes 4-6 weeks to get a new one and so I have been unable to access the money in that account. I remained calm and realised immediately that the Universe was sending me a message. Obviously I was meant to get a purse full of new bank cards and stop stressing over money. I felt as if God was telling me I needed to start over. I needed to let go of control because I wasn’t in control to begin with! I surrendered everything to him and put 100% faith in Him because I didn’t have the strength to deal with it. Day by day everything began to fall into place. Synchronicities popped up everywhere. People helped and assisted me where I needed it most. God was teaching my patience and faith!
I was already feeling low on energy, battled to get out of bed and I could feel my blood pressure was low. Yet, I had no choice but to carry on!
Then moving day came…my cat ran away and I had major issues with the security in my complex that delayed the whole move by 2 hours. Usually I would have been able to cope with this, but because my adrenaline and cortisol levels were pumping at the speed of lightning, I snapped. The security got an earful of swear words and almost a punch in the face. I worked myself into a standstill moving and unpacking until the move was over and all the chaos stopped….
That was when I crashed…properly! Every resource in my body and mind was depleted. Simple things like getting dressed became an event. I still had so much to do. I went to the bank to do my change of address, but found that the first page of my new lease did not print. I went onto my emails on my phone but they were not working so I could not even retrieve the document there. At that moment I realised that the Universe was telling me to STOP!
I was at the point that I could not deal with any tiny little thing. I battled to walk, talk, eat, shower and look after my son. I could not wait for bed time so I could just lie down, but when I did lie down my entire body ached from head to toe. Breathing was difficult and my ribs were in pain. I slept anyway because I was so damn tired. I could not think straight or see straight and felt like I was just existing.
Now, luckily, due to my profession, I am able to test myself for syndromes and decided it was time to do just that. I tested and found Adrenal Fatigue. I have had this before but years ago and you tend to forget exactly how you felt. So I cleared the emotional baggage behind it and ordered some homeopathic supplements that I use to treat with.
Now I am also aware that the mind is the most powerful tool in healing oneself, but when you are feeling so completely finished, it is not always easy to get into a powerful, positive frame of mind. I decided to listen to some healing meditation tracks and I fell asleep to the second one. This morning I woke up and all the pain was gone from my body. I am still feeling sleepy, but have some of my energy back. I believe that resting the past two days and not fighting it has helped tremendously. I listened to my body and gave it what it needed most. I had been ignoring the signs for awhile because I had to move forward at the time. We do not realise the amount of stress and strain we put onto ourselves physically, mentally and emotionally. From this I have learnt to slow down. I once read in a friend’s blog “you have to slow down to speed up” and I now understand this. I am of no use to anyone if I am burnt out. I have not put any pressure on myself to work, even though I know I have to.
So now I need to heed my own advice that I am always giving to people. As they say “you teach that most that you need to hear yourself’.
I have also been reading the book “The Alchemist” and have realised it has been the absolute perfect timing that a friend lent me the book to read. It explains every single little thing that has happened and why everything that happens is so important.
What exactly is Adrenal Fatigue?
Adrenal Fatigue happens when you are under a huge amount of stress for an extended period of time. Your adrenal glands secrete Adrenaline (fight or flight) and Cortisol (the hormone to help you deal with stress). Eventually, after putting your entire being under so much strain, your glands run out of these hormones and they are depleted. This leaves you feeling completely burnt out and exhausted.
Adrenal Fatigue is a syndrome that is not usually picked up or treated by medical doctors, but it is a real syndromes that affects many people on a daily basis.
Here are some of the symptoms if Adrenal Fatigue:
- Extreme tiredness and lethargy (that does seem to improve with sleep)
- Joint pain
- Back pain – especially in the lower back by the kidneys (this is where the adrenal glands are)
- Difficulty doing simple tasks
- Difficulty dealing with stress of any form
- Dry skin
- Poor circulation – numbness in arms and hands
- Low blood pressure
- Weight gain / loss of muscle tone
- Feeling low, depressed or tearful
This was written on 7 July 2016. I have not yet shaken it completely and still get very tired, but I am improving and getting stronger every day.
If you think you are suffering from Adrenal Fatigue, contact me. There is light at the end of the tunnel
